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Long time, no post

It's been ages since I've posted anything on here. Following my heart and my Jesus have taken me to some new places, specifically the Philadelphia area, and grad school. In four months, I'll be finishing up an MA in International Development and looking forward to a field placement somewhere overseas. Right now I have two very viable options: Switzerland and Nepal. They are with two very different organizations, one large and corporate, one small and grassroots, but both interest me and would stretch and grow my skills and abilities. If I'm completely honest with myself, I would have to admit the real appeal of each is their location. Switzerland would be a beautiful place to live for several months, especially through a winter season, but the idea of wearing power suits and heels every day makes me cringe and wonder if the paid internship would be worth the foot problems. Nepal, on the other hand, is also gorgeous, full of trekking opportunities as the position I would have would require travel through several districts and raise support for my time there. I would also get to wear whatever I wanted (within reason) and try out some comfortable saris while I'm at it. The opportunity in Nepal would be best really -it would use the experience I have as a teacher while also stretching me, both in developing skills as well as physical and emotional limits.

The issue that I'm facing with deciding on possibilities for the future is that, right now, I just don't feel talented or skilled at anything in particular. I've always loved it about myself that I'm sort of a jill-of-all-trades, knowing just enough about a lot of things, and having a wide range of interests. But now, that pride is turning into fear that without a specific skill set I will always be wondering if I'm taking the right path for me or doing what I could be doing with my life. I've been spending a lot of time praying and hashing things out with God about this issue, but so far no real answers have come to me.

So for now, we keep up the praying and seeking. That's usually the best answer anyway.